How Do You See it?

My world is an exact reflection of how I see it. I see a world where my friends have it better off than I do. Where no one has to try harder than I do. Where life is especially unfair for me. Where I'll never save a penny, or get a better job. I live in a world where I always have to compromise and drive my friends everywhere. Where I get the short end of the stick. I see a world where my friends keep at arms-length, where my best friend avoids me. I see a world where I've never been in love with someone I've dated. Where all my friends are able to easily get the boyfriends they want. Where I feel like I force myself onto guys. I live in a world that finds me unnatractive. Where no one approaches me in a club or will talk to me online once they see my picture. This is the world I've created. This Is the World I've lived in for the last 10 years. I've accepted this view and everything is colored with its stain. And it feeds on itself. Its a self fulfilling prophecy. People act towards me the way imagine them too. It reinforces those voices deep inside that remind me of my world. You see, its a whole lot easier to be a victim of circumstance. And no matter how you dress it up with fancy clothes and expensive things, your worth is all in your eyes. People can see how you see yourself. They can smell it. How you see yourself is important, but how you see your world makes all the difference.